So now I really am in the final stretch. Two weeks to go and I'm officially waddling, out of breath, emotional (I cried in Tesco the other week as I didn't know what I wanted to eat for my tea), tired, desperate to clean all day and genuinely feeling like one of the teletubbies.
I'm officially on maternity leave now (hurrah!) - which I thought would never come. So last week I spent my time 'nesting' and making my husband question his choice to marry me...I deep cleaned, so all the windows, scrubbed the carpets - and had my poor husband scrubbing the kitchen cupboards for hours - which he loved - so much. I also ironed all the baby clothes. (This will most probably be the last time this happens.) And the nursery is pretty much done, although we had to get a new radiator, which has decided to leak and come through the ceiling so the plumber will most definitely get pregnancy rage when he comes to fix it today.
I've also had my hair done - waxed (a joyous experience - even more so when pregnant) and I'm genuinely ready for baby to pop out easily, with no pain....I know they say your first baby is normally late, but Christ, if I go over my due date I think I'll turn into a hippo. And also can't imagine being pregnant for another four weeks.
Some of my lovely friends organised my baby shower which was just perfect. I didn't expect to have one to be honest as I wasn't going back to the North East until after baby arrives - but my friends on the patch organised a lovely afternoon of pottery, cakes - and beautiful presents. My mum, best friend, sister-in-law and mother-in-law came up to Scotland which made it even more special. And the presents we were given are just gorgeous. I was so overwhelmed and very emotional - there were tears. But felt so lucky and blessed to have such lovely friends and even more excited for Bear to arrive. It was also lovely to see how excited everyone else was - you get so wrapped up in your own pregnant world of at times, that you forget what joy a new baby brings to other people.
More good news to report as my husband will be around over my due date. So yes - it's all changed....again! The thought of going into labour without him and the risk of him missing the birth was quite scary, so yes I feel so lucky. And I guess I should be used to things changing over and over again but it really has been a bit of a rollercoaster of emotions. But - I do feel very lucky as a lot of my friend's husbands are heading abroad which is awful for them. (And I'm sure there have been and will be times my husband will wish he was going abroad...)
As much as my husband has been an absolute legend throughout these past few weeks - he has tested my pregnancy rage. The other week we went to a neighbour's party and he decided to have a 'few' which escalated to a lot and I came home - but he ended up staying (and then coming back home, then heading back to the party and then coming back home - which was fun) and I could hear his drunken voice through the walls, which enraged me like you could not imagine. I was tired and just wanted to sleep and I have no tolerance for drunk people now. (I want to be drunk.) Unbeknown to me, my husband had plugged his phone into my friend's TV to play his music and I was sending him what I will describe as very abusive messages. Which everyone could read. And apparently he kept on playing his music....so my pregnancy rage was projected for all to see. How embarrassing. 😂
So what are my highs and lows of the week?
High of the week: My baby shower.
Low of the week: Although everyone says I look well - I saw photos of myself and all I see is a version of me where I look like I have eaten my pre-pregnant self four times over.
Pregnancy rage: Drunk husband. (A running theme throughout my pregnancy...)
Product of the week: My nursing dress from ASOS I wore to my baby shower.
Exercise: Really not done much - apart from walk the dog every day. No CrossFit or Yoga - but I have Grey's Anatomy to catch up on...
So with two weeks to go - and all my jobs done. I really am trying not to get bored. Any suggestions on what I can do to pass my time? I may clean again....
Royal Marine Wife. Mum to Rafe.